Bits | Neobie Gonzalez 07.08.201512.31.2015 by Vagabond City Literary Journal In my dream I carry a mason jar filled with bits of Einstein’s brain (stolen before the rest of him was ashes), pieces they still haven’t found. I run up the stony steps of Gaudi’s basilica in Barcelona (built 1882 and finished never). Spires high, bricks laid, most of it a skeleton of becoming. Some fugue (Bach’s maybe) plays through a room, and it’s then I wake up, losing its last notes. One time in French class, my teacher told us “I miss you” was said as Tu me manques. Switch that back to English and it’s “You are missing from me.” or, simply put: “I lack you.” (or is it the other way around?) Everyone sighed at exactly the same second, while I thought of a hole growing right in the middle of a man, just above his navel, swelling by the size of what had long been gone from him. Soon it was stretched into the silhouette of his mother, pleased at return. But sensing want of her son, another hole bloomed within her until she formed him, a cycle of coming and going and coming, because nothing will ever be enough for either of them (nothing would be the same). I wondered then how long it would take me to grow into the shape of you, if we would even fit each other. You, being tall and me, tiny, in tiptoed sneakers (too often). There isn’t enough space here for absence. I think of things I used to have – pins (dropped), nails (trimmed off), marbles (given away), and the bell starts ringing. I stay behind to wear this buttonless sweater around me (yours), while the class stands up and shuffles, leaving (all our half-open books gently shut. —– Neobie Gonzalez is uncomfortable. She lives in Manila, Philippines, co-edits PLURAL Journal (pluralprosejournal.com), and blogs at neobiegonzalez.wordpress.com. Advertisements Share this:TwitterFacebookLike this:Like Loading... Tags: issue 6 Neobie Gonzalez poetry Vagabond City Literary Journal Founded in 2013, we are a literary journal dedicated to publishing outsider literature. We publish art, poetry, and creative nonfiction from marginalized creators. Related One thought on “Bits | Neobie Gonzalez” Pingback: Poem up at Vagabond City Journal | oh no Leave a Reply Cancel reply Enter your comment here... Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Email (required) (Address never made public) Name (required) Website You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. ( Log Out / Change ) You are commenting using your Google account. ( Log Out / Change ) You are commenting using your Twitter account. ( Log Out / Change ) You are commenting using your Facebook account. ( Log Out / Change ) Cancel Connecting to %s Notify me of new comments via email. Notify me of new posts via email.